that's all for today. thanks for reading for those of you that are. ciao bella xoxo M
Everything here is about our daily lives, were just like you. We have stories and secrets to tell too. Yes, there are flaws, but there are also successes!
So my life has been at a really low point lately. So many negative things have happened to me and my family and just my life in general. I don't wanna say everything because a lot are really personal. Anyways, it's come to the point where I don't want to go to school or even want to go to sleep because that means I'd have to wake up and face my fears. I'm crying at night or in the morning because I dread repeating the same torturing routine. I'm scared to embarrass myself, feel uncomfortable, feel unwanted, have fear, and more. I just hate that my mind can make me feel so down when I shouldn't. I wish I can convey my emotions without feeling ashamed and like I should hide. I sometimes lay on my bed while covering my mouth and cry to muffle the sounds and tears of pain and stress, so my family won't hear. They already have too much to worry about and I don't wanna add to their stress. When will of this stop? When wiIl I not be afraid? When will I see that I shouldn't be ashamed of what I'm feeling? When will I feel comfortable in the world again? I want to live, but how much is my life worth living? I want to be happy, but what is there to be happy about? And most of all I want to be carefree, but how can this happen? When can I live my life like a normal teenager?
that's all for today. thanks for reading for those of you that are. ciao bella xoxo M
Hey everyone! M here and I would like to give you a few tips on how to tame your nerves!
1. Set a calming picture as your wallpaper
Examples of pictures you can use are posted around the "Diary" tab or or you can go on google and find pictures that make you calm. I like waves and beaches!
2. Be creative
Let whatever is making you nervous escape your mind when you draw calming pictures or you can write. Write a story, write a poem, or just write the first words that come to your mind! Do whatever your heart desires
3. Keep a diary
Writing down things in a diary is so therapeutic. You can look back at your successes and also what you did to get through your difficult situations.
4. Go outside
Just take a break from any electronics and go outside! The fresh air can clear your mind and you can do whatever you want! Go to the park and read a book or take a notepad and draw a picture of the beautiful animals or just lay outside and relax.
Yes I know, but exercise helps a lot with bringing down stress and you know when you're doing it that you are doing your body a favor too! Also, you don't have to do hardcore cardio, you can just do simple and relaxing yoga exercises!
6. Safe Place
Find a place where you know you can relax and that you're safe there. For example, my bed is my safe place because it's cozy and I know that nothing bad can happen to me.
This goes along with tip 1 but find relaxing pictures or pictures that make you happy and putting them somewhere where you can look at them. You can string them across your wall, pin them on a cork board, pile them in a box or tape them on your mirror. Whatever floats your boat.
Sometimes it helps to tell a friend or adult that you feel nervous in certain situations because you know that they won't think you're rude if you leave in the middle of a movie or something like that. They can also be there to help you remain calm. I have told handful of people about my anxiety including a school counselor, my teacher, 3 of my friends and my parents. Trust me when I say having someone else aware can help you 100x more then keeping all your anxious feelings bottled up inside you.
I hope some of you took this advice and try at least one of them out! Love you! xoxo M
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Hey beauties! Today I was really nervous because I had to watch a presentation. One thing that makes me nervous is when I'm in situations like those because I feel trapped and like I could never leave or ask to leave. I had at least 4 panic attacks during the presentation but calmed down eventually. The presentation, in whole, was about 90 minutes which makes me even prouder to say that I did it. I didn't have to leave. I made it through for an hour and a half! I know it may not be a lot but I am proud of myself and this really shows me that I can do it!
Today I also continued reading Zoe Sugg's new book, "Girl Online On Tour". It is so good and very relatable because she is a photographer--like me, a blogger--like me and has anxiety--like me! I love Zoe so much and her books are amazing!! So I HIGHLY recommend you read them.
I'm gonna get back to How I Met Your Mother now! Love you all!
Hey Beauties!! It's M and I wanted to first say Happy New Year! I can't believe it is 2016! This year will hopefully be amazing! But I need to leave all the worries of 2015 behind so here I go.
1) Friends- honestly I need new ones. I will obviously keep my amazing friends with me aka A and a few more, but a lot need to go. Hopefully a new year can help this and I can gain new friends!!
2) Anxiety- GO AWAY! Someone please make it go away. It prevents me from doing things that could help me and just do fun things in general!
3) Cancer- again, GO AWAY! I freaking hate you and you need to leave my mom alone! BYEE
There are a tad bit more but that's the gist of it! So, I want all of you to keep your heads up just like I'm gonna do and if anything is bothering you then tell someone and it's nice to vent--just like I did to you! Anyways, I LOVE Y'ALL SOOOO MUCH!! Have the best year of your life and make each minute worth it! xoxo M
M and I went out for a nice dinner together last night. We spent the day together. We had such a good time together and I loved it. But this story is about what happened after I left M's...
As you may know, M and I both have anxiety, M gets really nervous in public places and is going through a rough patch with her friends and family. I felt the same way two years ago, that is why i love helping her out because I am pretty much the only one who knows what its like to get extremely nervous around unnerve-racking places.
I had depression two years ago and anxiety was kind of my long-term effect from it. Last year was a great year for me, I got my life back together, had a good time, and I was finally having fun again.
This year it's different. My anxiety has become severe. I'm no longer just getting nervous, I'm beginning to get severe attacks. Here's what happened to me last night.
First, I started thinking that I didnt feel safe, that I never will, and the world is full of bad people. Then, I started sweating really bad, crying, and breathing heavily. My heart was beating so fast and I was starting to get really nauseous. I thought I was about to lose my mind. Next, my vision was starting to go silver at the edges and I knew I was about to pass out. I had to get up and get someone NOW. I ran to get my mom and she calmed me down as best as she could until sleep overcame me.
I'm not really sure why this happened last night or what triggered it, all I know is that the attacks I have had before have NEVER been this bad. I love you guys, this is the best feeling in the world knowing that I can share my feeling with you all. I love you guys so much. If you ever need anything, PLEASE, contact us. We love helping others, so whatever you need we got your back.
Love you! -A
FUN FACT ABOUT ME! Im half Jewish and half Christian. I'm a cashew! (Catholic Jew) Anyways, I celebrate both Christmas and Chanukah!
I had a great time with my family on Christmas and I loved every minute I spent with them.
Heres what I recieved...
Leyla Milani Curling Iron
Pink Nike sportsbra
A crop top from topshop
Too faced candlelight glow highlighting powder
3 real techniques brushes
Mac lipliner (thanks M!)
Nyx lip liner
A travel size full exposure palette
Earth theraputics sleep mask
Undereye bag soothing serum
A water bottle
Nyx stay matte but not flat foundation
Thank you so much for listening! I hope you have a wonderful holiday season! Love you guys!!
Hey guys! Im here to tell you all about me. First off, the author writing this post (since I know it may get confusing) is going to now go by A. It's the first letter of my name. So here are a couple things you should know about me!
I am a food fanatic
I love dogs and I have an Australian labradoodle
I love to do competitive dance, (I do hiphop and tap)
I LOVE volleyball
I have a sister a mom and a dad
I love writing
I love photography
I wish I could travel the world
I love to hunt and fish
My current favorite show is Keeping Up With The Kardashians
I love the color thats a really light purple with a hint of grey
I love people who are positive
Im in the process of changing my schools dress code
I am in love with Dylan O'Brien & know everything about him
Thank you so much for reading if you read the whole thing! Me and M love you all so much. PLEASE talk to us whenever you feel down, were here 24/7!!! Happy Holidays!
Hey beauties! You can call me M! I am part owner of this blog! My best friend and I own this amazing site for many reasons! But let's focus on me (haha).
-An avid writer
-Intrigued by photography
-Fascinated by makeup and fashion
-Indoors & outdoors person
-Can come off very shy, but can be very outgoing once I'm comfortable
-I have anxiety
-Smiling is my hobby
-Love YouTube (ZOELLA)
-Interested in special needs kids and kids in general
-I have 3 younger siblings(twin brothers and a sister) and 2 moms
And the list could go on!
Thanks so much for reading and I hope you learned some things about me that intrigued you! If there's anything that you and I have in common please comment or contact me! Love you guys! -M